Two Months

My official due date is two months from tomorrow. This morning as I sat reading the Ensign I could feel the baby kicking against my ribs and thought I'd like to write some things down this morning.

"The baby" has rarely been called that by me - she's always been Haven. When people ask where I heard of that name I can't really tell them. I believe that a year or more ago I was doing genealogy for somebody and saw the name as part of a town. For some reason the name really struck me as something I like. I've since heard of one other person with the name. Chad has been a good sport and been easygoing about me taking over in the name department. So, I'm pretty sure her name will be Haven. We're still deciding on a middle name (suggestions?).

Expecting a second baby is different than the first. I know a lot more about what to expect. I have less time and less need to do as much research on pregnancy and birth as I did the first time. I have a lot more confidence that things will go smoothly and that I'll be able to give birth well. I hear each time is different and to be flexible, so I'll try to do that.

I'm nervous about being the mom of two children. I hope to be able to encourage Jozie to grow from this - to encourage her to help, to share, to be patient. I hope to be able to show each of my girls the love they need and to be a mom to each individual with each individual's needs. I grew up as the oldest child, so I'm afraid of not being keyed into what a second child needs. I know I'll have help to understand and to see needs.

I'm excited to meet little Haven and to get to know her!